What came first - change or orchard?

I am nervous and anxious. Really, its' like this inner person is screaming for a change, and I cannot deliver. I. cannot. Blasphemous! Unacceptable! How can that be?

So, I wander in hope of picking a change, much like picking that perfect apple from a lovely orchard. Can it be that easy or would I have to start from scratch - that is, create an orchard first. I let the inner person decide...while I eat this really juicy plum : )

Hugs!